Thursday, June 5, 2008

Silly anxiety and worries...

I am basically writing this for some therapy for myself so feel free to skip this as it has no useful or fun information to read about. In general, I feel like I am able to handle a lot of things but because of upcoming event I am having a lot of silly anxiety and worries...

Besides my classes, twice a semester I am required to attend "intensive weeks" at school. Usually they are from 9-5 Mon-Wed. Because it is summer semester and the courses are condensed the "intensive weeks" are longer! The first one is next week Mon-Fri and the first day is 7:30 am to 9:00 p.m! AHHH! The other days are pretty much the same minus an hour on two of the days!

This is resulting in big anxiety and worry for me...My kiddos and I are staying at my sisters house in Heber and I will drive to U of U and back everyday. I am not worried about my kids. I know they will be loved to pieces (thank you Carrie!) but I am worried about my ability to leave them for so long! I hate leaving them and rarely do...I have separation anxiety! :)

I am learning so much, but I have to say that for the first time in my 16+ years of schooling I feel intimidated, nervous, and a feeling of being the 'new girl' on the job everyday! You know the feeling of wanting to be impressive, wanting to do a really good job, wanting to know all the answers etc? Does that make sense?

Anyway, there you have it. Each time these weeks have come up I always get these similar feelings and after each week flies by and turns out fine...I can't believe I worried so much! It always boils down to one thing though...I will miss my sweet babies and my cute hubby!

6 comments:

Heart on my sleeve said...

April,
we all know you can do it!
You're nothing but AWESOME!!! Love you!

Crystal said...

Hey Friend, My prayers are with you! YOu are an amazing individual remember that!
Crystal

The Reese's said...

good luck, it's awesome that with kids and everything your able to still do all that. way to go!

Ben & Keri said...

You will come through with flying colors! The kids will have a fun week bonding with their cousins, you enjoy a week of learning and Cam will get a whole week of working on the duplex!:) Good Luck and we will be praying for your little family! Love you

Nicole Tingey said...

hey april! i saw you on here and just thought i would say hi! not sure if you remember me or not? i lived by you in bothwell. your kids are so adorable!!! anyways....just thought i would say hey!

Christensen Family said...

That would be hard to do. But you will do great! And you shouldn't feel like you don't measure up at work. You are a great nurse! (I should know... you helped delivered my my son!) :)